Purple Closet (cause it's my favorite color)

i am a christian teenager, but found out i might be either bisexual or pansexual, i feel bad for having this and also for wondering how it would be to get out of the closet, idk if it's related to that but my brain recently got the idea of wanting me to wear and draw dresses, like, i am not trans or a femboy (already tried to imagine me as a girl and didn't liked the idea) i think i just want to see if a dress is comfortable, especially a maid one, also i am afraid of what my parents will think if they found out about this, especially my dad cause i posted a similiar confession yesterday and today he is kind of sad, idk if it's because he and my mom discussed a little but, anyways/gays/straights, thanks for reading this.