I have repressed memories about childhood sexual abuse

I am a 9 year old in my family farmhouse for a summer getaway. And it was a gloomy evening, when my uncle sat next to my bed, and started fingering me to his liking. My personhood was encroached upon, and my consent was infringed. It was dark for me especially, and my mind decided to forget all of it until I took a heroic dose of shrooms when I was 20. Tragic to get CPTSD at this age with substances, but I’m well!